As the title says this blog is one man’s effort to make sense out of his journey fighting melanoma. I have enjoyed reading some of my fellow melanoma warriors’ blogs and thought it might be an interesting way to share what this journey has been like for me. If you find this interesting great, if not that’s great also. Selfishly this is more about me getting this out and moving on from being a cancer patient to being a cancer survivor.

Let’s clear up a few things. Yes, I know how to use spell check and no I don’t always use it. I majored in accounting, not english. I have always been a below average writer, which is why I find the therapeutic value of doing this surprising. I think for this blog to make any sense you pretty much have to go to the archive and start from the beginning which is titled “Life Is Good”

I am not a doctor or medial professional of any type. My blog is not endorsed by any medical professional or facility mentioned in it. Every decision I have made about my care was done after careful consultation with my medical team. Decisions I have made were right for me but should not in any instance be considered right for anybody else. I don't recommend taking medical advice from an accountant.

Key West

Key West

Saturday, September 18, 2010

But Isn’t That A Cancer Doctor?

As I waited for the call from Dr. G on my lab results I must admit I had done a little Google research on melanoma.  What I saw was scary and there was no way I had this disease.  I would feel sick, it would look worse; I would have a family history…..  There was just no way I had cancer, let alone this especially deadly form of it.  This journey has been marked with a lot of moments I will never forget and I imagine most cancer patients can tell you when and where they were when they got the news.  I knew that there was something wrong as soon as I heard Dr. G on the phone.  His playful joking demeanor was gone and he had a sound of concern in his voice.  He gave me the news and my head just started spinning.  The mole had indeed tested positive for Melanoma and it was much thicker than he thought.  It was nearly 4 mm thick, ulcerated, and some other stuff that was all bad news.  He said he had taken the liberty of calling an oncologist for me and discussed my case with him.  He said I needed to call and make an appointment asap.  At this point I said to him “But isn’t that a cancer Dr” as if I still couldn’t process what was happening.  The next thing I did was phone my older sister and I gave her the news.  I was so upset and to be honest terrified.  I still didn’t know much about Melanoma but what I did know was that the results of my lab test indicated that there was a very high chance that cancer had already spread to my lymph nodes and possibly my body organs.  The average life expectancy for a melanoma patient once it spreads to your body organs is about 8 months and it is fatal nearly 100% of the time at that point.  I can still remember hearing my her voice on the other end of the phone as I was losing it.  She kept it together and her voice was so soothing and reassuring.  She told me it was ok to be scared and that it was going to be ok.  She was going to be there for me and we would just take it one Dr appointment at a time.  That is the moment that I will already remember from that day.  Family is everything.